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| okay, after a lot of debate, i chose weretheworldmine for my new xanga over ivoryandgold
http://www.xanga.com/weretheworldmine
customary ~good-bye~ post for this xanga
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| DEAR SELF,
DON'T FORGET TO MAKE A NEW XANGA ON JULY 14. ALSO, REMEMBER THAT HBP AT GRAUMAN'S CHINESE THEATRE IS THAT SAME NIGHT. KINDLY DON'T FORGET TO FREAK THE FUCK OUT.
okay, but seriously, a few things i feel i should mention...
1) omg HBP at midnight in three dayos fkldajfl;ealw
2) american idol in LA is this week too! heather offered to pay for my tickets if i can find close ones, so i'm checking ticketmaster every 5 min or so
3) i'm getting an iPhone 3G... it should have arrived today. i think i'm going to exchange it for a 3GS if i can.
4) god my life is so crazy right now.
5) i'm going home aug 15-23. i kinda wish i wasn't now. idk. it's the last week of summer before school starts... i kinda want to be here for that :\ i'd prefer to be here for my birthday too. oh well, whatever.
6) i don't knwoe ifjdl;afjkl;dajp'a'kpawe
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| i feel so shitty right now. money stresses the fuck out of me. i find myself buying tons of shit i don't need and then freaking out when i get home and needing to go back and return all of it. i know it makes me sound like a bitch, but i hate doing money-related favours for my richer friends. a lot of my friends have so much money, but i still find myself driving them around, paying extra to make up for the difference in restaurant bills, etc. ughhhhhhhhfdsafjkaewje;jaewel;awjfekl;awjkl;fakjsdkjad;hcjaidnc.
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| so basically i've been having the shittiest day ever.
1. american idol auditions sucked. i had to wake up at 3 am and wait in the sun for 6 hours, only to fuck up my song beyond recognition.
2. my license is expiring in two days, and the DMV won't let me get a new one. i need a passport to verify my age, but my visa expires in 2 days, and they can only use it if it's 60 days before the expiration date. therefore, since i can't renew my visa, i can't get a new license. i can't go home and get it renewed before july 2, because tickets are $800, which is just NOT within my budget. i also won't be able to go home after july 2, because my passport will be expired and i won't have a form of ID at the airport. in other words, i'm stuck in california and i can't drive. i fucking hate my life.
3. i just binge ate like there's no tomorrow. it helped me feel better while i was eating, but now i feel like shit. i was going to go work out but i think i'll sleep instead.
4. i have to work 7-3 on thursday
5. i have a shit ton of coverage to do tonight
6. i'm going to be alone on july 4 weekend
7. i'm just sad :( when i'm sad i make a mess, which makes me even more sad. i need to talk to someone right now.
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| omg i feel really bad for not updating for so long. SORRY, FUTURE SELF :( i've just been so busy with my internships and work that i'm too exhausted to talk about my day when i get back. actually, tbh, i don't really want to talk about my days with anyone. i'd rather just come home, go on ontd_ai, watch sytycd if it's on, eat, and sleep so i can get up for work the next day.
ugh. i don't know how i feel about life right now. i feel so... weary. it's so hard to think about anything. idk, i have this weird feeling inside me all the time and i can't explain it. at the same time, i want to go out to bars and clubs and have fun. adam has really inspired me to go all out with everything and to embrace lifestyles that used to freak me out. it's crazy how much i've changed just by taking adam's words in interviews to heart and by branching out and meeting other people like the interns at valhalla. i feel like i'm a completely different person now than i was at the beginning of spring semester, before the idol finale, before staying in LA over the summer, before moving to cindy's place, before i started working. i feel so... grown up, lol. i feel like i can do stuff rather than just sit back and think about it. like, if i want to go to pride, i can go. if i want to go the AI auditions, i can. it's crazy.
holy shit, i can't believe it's almost time for me to get a new xanga. WTF i feel like i just got this one yesterday. time goes by so fast, it's ridiculous D: like i did in 2005, with the release of the hbp book, i'll be starting my new xanga with the release of the hbp movie. shit. everything is moving so fast. CAN YOU PLEASE SLOW DOWN, LIFE
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